Why “Healed” can be a Difficult Concept to Accept

“Your body can heal. You can get better,” Dr. Alex said knelt in front of me. We had just finished another huge meninge release and I was out of sorts. Dizzy, faint and now totally enraged at the comment spoken, I peered back into Dr. Alex’s eyes. I said nothing. It felt like an empty promise, and I had no room to fit another void into my heart. That was the first time I recall ever being told I could be healed. It is something I wished for, yet not a concept I could easily accept as truth, not while staring down a path overcrowded with unknowns.

If you have a chronic illness, at some point someone has probably told you can be “healed”. This is a challenging topic to talk about with the person who has high hopes for your recovery. It is even harder to accept as truth. But what makes us believe we can not be healed? Well, I think it may because of how we are often treated by medical doctors.

Healed is not highly promoted in the medical world. The overall message is that we need pharmaceutical drugs to feel better, manage our symptoms, ease our pain, deal with our emotions, give birth, raise a well-behaved child, and age effortlessly. We are blinded to how are bodies are capable of more than we can imagine. Which is what makes the pivotal point of healing to be rather frightening. Consumed by fear we find it hard to fathom the possibility of being healed.

The Herxheimer reaction or healing crisis can be the most brutal part of healing. All it once it seems, every symptom reaches full intensity. Like the transitional part of labour, a terrible hangover or withdrawals from recreational drugs, the Herx absolutely sucks. You begin to say things like, “I can’t do it! I am in too much pain! I can’t not push anymore!” All time is lost. You don’t know what day it is. You can’t remember who you used to be or what you were able to do before. You wonder if this is the end or the beginning. Herxing is terrifying. We banish the thought of being healed because the pathway there feels far too treacherous to continue. It can be done though! In fact it has already happened to so many people.

Like I talked about in my last post, Turning Grief into Passion, people can go through extreme hardships, and still survive the odds. Healed is a state of being that most certainly can be achieved. Resolve is illustrated in the metaphors listed before. When the transition of labour ends, the baby is born and pure joy replaces the pain. Eventually, your hangover subsides and you begin to anticipate the next party. Once the withdrawals stop, the body returns to homeostasis and learns to function again without the drugs. And so it is the same with the healing crises. It may happen again and again or for months, even years on end, but “healed” does exist when the Herx is over.

Several weeks after the meninge release at Dr. Alex’s office, my nurse treated me with NAET. The retracing had subsided by now. I had made it through another grueling round of muscle pain, faintness, nausea and extreme fatigue. I was back to baseline, where hope is very prevalent. I laid on the table, ready to work through today’s protocol for NAET.  My nurse tested dozens of vials to determine what I would be treated for during the session. Viruses, fats, proteins and several vitamins. As my treatment started, we began a philosophical discussion about the progression and resolution of disease. I had an epiphany. I asked, “If I was fine before. Why can’t I be fine again?” It was a rhetorical question.

It took me awhile, but after hearing and seeing so many people be healed of chronic illness, I truly believe it is possible! It may not always come in miraculous form. Sometimes it comes in small doses or in the management of ongoing symptoms. In that case, I have been healed many times and so have many others.

*Names were changed to respect the privacy of the people in this post.

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2 thoughts on “Why “Healed” can be a Difficult Concept to Accept

  1. Hey Lorraine, this is “Jay” from instagram! I love your blog 🙂

    This was such a great, insightful post. I think hope for healing can be a little scary, because hoping for something that may not come right away feels useless and disappointing. For me the biggest thing has been recognizing the little bits of progress, despite the herxing and setbacks.

    Keep writing! You have a knack for it 🙂

    -Jana

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